In Such An Hour page 2

All I can say to you, Mr. Ames, is that you certainly are entitled to tear-up the "writers contract" you sent for me to ink the other day. The book would just be another political ploy. I inked it, all right, and put it in the mail on Monday. I can't decently write "An Exciting Black Senator's Life on Ground-Splitting D.C.", not now! At any rate, if that weird behavior of mine brings down any appreciable percentage of my dicey reputation and popularity with voters - especially black voters - well, who cares. (!!!)

The Key Word today is Greed - more than ever. It's in us all and has to be dealt with or it only gets worse. Not only that, greed is growing like huge black pimples and won't heal until we confront it and create a healthy skin that we can admire.

It is obvious that there are now very few spokesmen for races that my Party will put-up-with. My colleagues' Myth of Perfection; a hideous dream of racial equality has put nameless unnumbered bodies into icy unmarked pits.

I know now that it's my colleagues who are so blind to the fact that everyone and everthing are polarized.

I'm not answering my private "phone" here in my office where I spent a long long night and, of course, no air-conditioning here "either," Mr. Ames. So, I trust that if you managed to call me, you left a message on at least one "working" phone. Frankly, I'm afraid to review any messages waiting there for me. Still, I think I made some sort of decent speech (in a tardy support of Mama? - that lovely person?). I am sweating like a pig. Don't doubt that, if you will pardon the expression. (And I like pigs.)

I should add that I know I don't have the rage that black men have. Black females - for the most part - find it fairly easy to sublimate many feelings when they're still very young. I am not the best example, but I learned to ignore racial pressures. What I was thinking - well, I thought that Blacks appearances on T-V years ago, showing them in every kind of excellent profession, would help us a lot - but - ! I get angry just thinking about that. So few real jobs now for anyone. Fewer and fewer workers needed. Sad. Why do we put up with it? What's being done? Nothing! I thought there would be........well, why bother to question that?

Mr. Ames, as you know, the NRA certainly isn't needed and won't be. I hope you're not into too much "denial," that being "all the rage." Clever of me, putting it that way. I should know about denial. It's my big fight too. And speaking of fights, I sometimes think that everyone is looking for somebody to beat-up! The idea that "Everybody's a victim" has soured. We were getting better at "forging" (archaic) for truths that lay hidden - from me, among others. Fortunately, some adults and kids forget their differences and help-out when there is "mass death." (At one time, if parents didn't care, kids didn't care.) Helpers are really decent, even the old Baby Boomers, if there is no electric power-outage.


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